I just find myself in a shitty spot. I want to like you, but i don’t really, and i only would make things worse by leading you on at all. It’s funny how life works out. You’re sad and alone until you’re not, and then when you aren’t the flood gates open and everyone wants a piece of you. I just wish that things were as easy in real life as they are in your head when you daydream about them.
So here i find myself trying to be a new person who can and does stay on top of his shit, but I’m starting to get dragged down by the same sorts of thoughts that use to get me stuck. I’m not even sure why it is that i wrote all this out, i think i just needed to get all these feelings out of my head and onto paper.
Other than that, my summer was fantastic. I really got to do something different than i had ever really done before. I met a lot of cool people and got to mentor a lot of cool kids. I’d like to think the experience helped me grow into a more adult person, but only time will tell if that is actually true or not.
Que sera sera